dont pay too much attention

Its march 11^th…..

The day when everything in this world seem meaningless. When everything in this world seem wasted. When everything in this world seems like a movie. When everything in this world seems like a book. When everything in this world seems like a song that buzzes every moment of your life. And that day happens to be now. when I’m drunk to the happy state of existence.

Its been a while since I have written serious matter on the things going around my life. Ha, my life. I cant believe that I have become a sort of a playboy. Its so weird for me to even think of it. Shady and so unlike me. But, hell………ladoo is right I guess. He told me a couple of days back that I was a bit too sentimental and the reason I keep getting dumped is my sentimentalism. But, shit…..is that true…..no wait….fuck….

Questions which I cant answer has been asked to me. Its my stupid heart that made me ask these. Like, what is the future? Or, the worse, where do you see yourself after 10 years? My brain….small one compared to yours said……said, attraction is the main thing. But I am just too complex too answer them. But I ask myself, when I became so complex. When did I start thinking about the other sex? But with maturity, came another dilemma, its called love. And I am in deep like the hell below. And high like the bittersweet stars above. And I hate it. I detest it. I loathe it too. But, I cant help it. My best friend is ladoo…….and he is in one of those love based purely on physical pleasure. Well, I think I am too….till sometime. But, now I know, how I feel. And I have had enough.

Just like I started, its been a while….and as so many song will tell me….its gonna be fine…

i was listening to snow patrol's "chasing cars" and had much booze to write this....so, forgive me if i said a bit too much...but...
i have said those three words,
just too much.
i guess, thats not enough.